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Trading Theological Certainty for Freedom

1/24/2017

 
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Certainties. My early spiritual life revolved around, even depended on them.  

Taking my cues from respected authority figures, I lived by the motto, "Just tell me what to do and I'll do it."  I loved a good black and white answer.  Right beliefs.  Right actions.

This wasn't limited to what I should theologically believe. I had a lot of "shoulds," from food to parenting. Constantly searching for, collecting and then, more often then not, spewing certainties...ugh...talk about exhausting! Authenticity is important to me so that brought another layer of exhaustion when what I thought I was certain about did not align with my intuition!   What was I to do?

Baruch Spinoza, the 17th century Dutch philosopher wrote of three ways of knowing: 
  • Tradition- knowledge that comes from authority figures telling you what you must know
  • Reason- knowledge that comes from engaging your mind in questioning and comparing claims to figure out what to know
  • Intuition- knowledge that is unable to be figured out but comes from some place beyond or deep within yourself revealing what you know 

All have their place.  I had a good theological container growing up.  The problem became when I did not feel the freedom to step out of the container to dialogue and chose to get really good at staying in the initial "box" (which is the Land of Certitude).  Why didn't I?  It doesn't take long to notice that when you move from Tradition to Reason to Intuition, you begin to step out of safe, socially acceptable boxes. Questioning what you've been told is true can be scary. Not only is it uncomfortable, your fear can be well-founded as you read about those "heretics" who did the same thing in ages past (i.e. who wants to be burned at a stake literally or even metaphorically?!)!
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But as Paul wrote to those in Corinth, "Now the Lord is the Spirit and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom" (II Corinthians 3:17).  I no longer see freedom in staying in an authority decreed box of certitudes (Jesus didn't either).  Refusing to enter into dialogue with our most important beliefs and deepest questions does not bring life.  Sure we may not be crucified or burned at a stake or attacked by internet trolls, but to stay in a box isn't living life at its fullest (as Jesus invites).

Now we don't have to burn the box.  Jesus spoke to and within his tradition.  Instead we can step out to get a better view of the tradition, ourselves and the question we're asking.  This can lead to a deepening of one's own faith and a tradition which may offer an even better starting place of knowledge for others!   

"In all affairs it's a healthy thing now and then to hang a question mark on the things you have long taken for granted."  I couldn't agree more.  It offers three freedoms or permissions:
 
To engage other voices and ideas.
My former authority-pleasing self cringed the first time I saw the above quote came from Bertrand Russell, the 19th c. philosopher and mathematician, whose personal conclusion was that he could not be a Christian.  Voices like Russell's need not be ignored or feared.  We have freedom to listen for life and truth everywhere, use discernment (a later post will offer discernment questions) and come to our own conclusions.  My doubts and letting go of certain doctrines, like penal substitution, have happened to draw me closer to Christ.  I also trust that God provides guidance and correction along my path so I am free to dialogue with the whole gamut of beliefs, opinions and experiences.  And I've come to appreciate the Celtic saying, "Everyone has some of the wisdom."

To ask "dangerous" questions and listen to our God-given intuition.  I can dive deep into the soul rather than skim the surface of things.  For me, one of those "dangerous" questions for the past decade has been, "What beliefs of mine or the church's are superstitious or fear-based?"  Last year I named my journal "Fearless Adventures with My Intuition" just to encourage venturing into any "off-limits" theological areas and ask questions I had been afraid to which led to discovering a variety of ways of listening to my intuition (something I felt was stifled early on).  As I look back I can see that it's actually been the Holy Spirit (who is Truth) who coaxed me out of the box and into the questions!


To enter and even embrace the "Cloud of Unknowing." 
It's a holy place.  Admittedly, it can be uncomfortable (and even scary).  Especially for a church leader or spiritual director (although the latter is typically more comfortable with the silence found there)!  Being in a place of not having answers requires trust.  We are invited to trust that God is guiding us into deeper truth even if we cannot articulate it yet.  Our hearts can be at peace with those in-between states, rather than fretting to find another certainty to fill the empty space (and satisfy our ego by having an answer to give others).  The "Cloud of Unknowing" offers gifts that are deeper than words and gifts us to be a safe place for others' questions and doubts. 

In spiritual direction, you are free to explore.  
I welcome your questions and doubts.  Most likely I will not have answers. I want to accompany you in stepping out of the box rather than give you a different one to step into. We'll have soul-shaping conversations as we dialogue with Scripture, reason, tradition(s) and experience.  We'll listen to ways your body and imagination are speaking.  Then I'll join you in the "Cloud of Unknowing" until that Voice coming from outside (but also through) us brings revelation.  Which could be the freedom to let go of some certainties!  


  • When was the last time you questioned a theological belief whether it was something you were taught, read or heard in a song/hymn, a sermon or Sunday school teaching?  If you haven't, is there one that provokes questions or curiosity?
  • Are there any "off-limits" areas of spirituality you have wanted to explore but have not out of fear?
  • What has been your experience of God when it comes to your doubts and questions?


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    Kasey is a scarf, ball and club juggling spiritual director just outside of Nashville, TN.  Play helps her Type-A, Enneagram 1 personality relax, creating space for poetry and other words to emerge. She also likes playing with theological ideas like perichoresis, and all the ways we're invited into this Triune dance.  

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